Abandoned
The slamming door was the sound of severance
“You weren’t enough” a repeating alarm
The covenant that was etched in granite
Wiped away like the tear off a cheek
The lips that once were my sanctuary
Now rip and tear the flesh from the bone
The sleepless nights ,these sheets have grown cold
As the grave tale of abandonment unfolds
My world crumbled as i watched you leave
Left alone like its my destiny
Our limbs grow weary bearing all of this baggage
We lose our embrace for one another
It is amazing what we are capable of
When fear takes captain and our hearts grow cold
We abandon each other for a mirage of a sweeter prize
Cutting our necks on the fence to reach the lust on the other side
So we sever ties to listen to these lies
My world crumbled as i watched you leave
Left alone like its my destiny
Our limbs grow weary bearing all of this baggage
We lose our embrace for one another
It is amazing what we are capable of
When fear takes captain and our hearts grow cold
I’ve seen so many exits
Each leave a scar, a mark to remind me
Is it I that’s the cursed one?
Alone like it’s destiny
Once again abandoned
God will you too desert me?
Brook Reeves -
“Even when you have nothing, I vow to still be here
Theres no man, there’s no creation, can separate you from me
ILL NEVER FORSAKE YOU”
Ghost
Who’s voice do I hear out of your mouth
Your heart plays a new tune than before
You drifted into wastelands
Sinking into the barren sands
Cutting your tongue just to quench your thirst
You traded your morals for material
Every night I bow a knee
Pleading to he who holds light
Illuminate, radiate
For the ones who lost their sight
You slipped through the seems, became a ghost
You slipped through the seems, you’re not your self
Distance has settled in the space between us
Where has your gaze settled, or have your eyes burnt out?
You found your stomach but you lost your pulse
The vase has sprung a leak, you’ve been emptied out
Life once was, has evaporated
And a new host, is now acclimated
Where was the disconnect
Where was the disconnect
You drifted into wastelands
Sinking into the barren sands
Cutting your tongue just to quench your thirst
What was the straw that broke the camels back
Every night I bow a knee
Pleading to he who holds light
Illuminate, radiate
For the ones who lost their sight
I still hold on to hope
An anchor, foundation
In the blackness, even when thickest
There’s a light that shines through
Illuminate
We long await for the day that the light finds you
Return, Renew
Unchain
I’ve grown a crooked spine
I’ve carried these chains all my life
Up and down the streets
Every day I drag defeats
My shoulders sag and bow
With each trespass i sew
The weed will find the crack
My guilt keeps creeping back
A new voice speaks to me
it wants to set me free
When gutter hands grab ahold
Don’t be dismayed, don’t be troubled
The grip is frail, the strength is weak
You’re not chained to defeat
When gutter hands grab ahold
Don’t be dismayed, don’t be troubled
The grip is frail, the strength is weak
You’re not chained to your defeats
You’re set free
Does the steer drag the plow
Or do i wear the yoke?
Driven by these masters, I’m prisoner
I carry the cross of “shouldn’t haves”
And the distaste of past regrets
Cling to my tongue
A new voice speaks to me
it wants to set me free
When gutter hands grab ahold
Don’t be dismayed, don’t be troubled
The grip is frail, the strength is weak
You’re not chained to defeat
When gutter hands grab ahold
Don’t be dismayed, or troubled
The grip is frail, the strength is weak
You’re not chained to your defeats
Do not keep
Your defeats
The last weight, last burden
The noose thats’ suffocating me
To acquit, to forgive
The reflection, staring back at me
Where there’s freedom
Then there is life
Set yourself free
Time to unchain
Shatter
Thoughts pick away at my mind like vultures
Am I a vessel built for agony?
A machine made to fill up space?
Scraps from the bottom of the barrel?
When I close my eyes at night
I see black, I see red
I see every mistake that I ever made
Can i make it end?
How do I make it end?
i’m teetering on the edge
I’ve lost control of my mind
Calm down, breathe out, the walls are closing in
I know i’m born for more, i gotta believe that
I swear that i’m trying, but the pain’s crippling
When the hurt leaves where does it go?
How does it always make a re-entrance?
There must be a leak, there must be a hole
Fill my ears, block my eyes, so it cant get in
I won’t let it in
Oh no it’s here again!
Agony! Pain! Where’s my medicine?
I’ve always heard them say
Crack a smile, you never know who is watching
But I want you to know if I crack anymore, I swear to god it’ll send my whole life shattering!
i’m convinced the hurt runs in my blood
Maybe i should let some out, and let some fresh air in
“The sky grows darker every time a star burns out
You cast such a vibrant glow, please don’t fade out
Authentic beauty, that you carry within you
You will take it along with you, if you go too soon”
I tried to do this all on my own
But i can’t make it alone
I know I can’t make the pain end
But I won’t let the pain be the end of me